It’s been a while since I have written anything here. There’s a lot of reasons for that, most involved with my offline life, which has been incredibly stressful since last April or so.
But in reality, I simply haven’t wanted to write. Not here, where things are so personal for me. There’s too much swirling around in my head for me to be able to make sense of things.
The truth is that depression, that old thief, is coming back for me, this time trying to take the life I’ve built around this game. I refuse to let the bastard win, but I am having trouble figuring out how to fight this fight. The details, I mean.
I need to increase the things that I want in my life and decrease the things that I don’t want.
I need to eat better, sleep more, and generally take better care of myself physically. I need to take care of my family. I need to remind myself how much I really do accomplish every day.
And I need to eliminate as much as possible the the things that are anchors on my spirit.
That last one is directed, partly, at social media. I’ve already stopped the Facebook thing. Now it’s Twitter’s turn.
Today is January 22. I will be staying off twitter until at least Januray 31, after the NHL All Star Game. If you need to get in touch with me, I will check DMs, but that’s all. Generally speaking, a total media blackout.
My hope is to actually write something and to make some decisions about my next steps.
As always, take care of each other. We’re all we’ve got.